After 4 years, it's over. It should have been over earlier, but I couldn't change my thinking. I'm sorry for being stubbornly persistent in something that was just not meant to be, and for wishfully thinking that I could have made a difference in the end. I couldn't, and things backfired. I was a fool.

Due to circumstances, there was and will never be a chance for my feelings to be honestly delivered and understood. It was too one-sided afterall for any dialogue to take place. But that's life. There's nothing much left to be said.

While it lasted, whatever I did, I did it willingly. It came naturally to me, to need to do those things, perhaps to convey my feelings. No one owes me anything, and neither did they do me wrong.

It has been too long in the same spot, and it's time to move on. I'm late.