Today was MR500, and well it was bad. I missed my T1 event due to my own misinformation, and the K2 was just bad.

I guess I have to be honest here and say that I didn't really know what I was doing there anymore. T1? The last time I sat in a T1 was a month ago, for maybe 20 mins. K2? Think I paddled 4-5 times for this, of which only 1 set was speed endurance. And the last time I sat in the boat was 2 weeks ago.

I missed my T1 event. But I didn't feel anything. In fact, it never really struck me that I was really going to be paddling, today. My mind just didn't seem interested in the racing. For K2, I tried, but both the balance and strength were insufficient for the occasion. A disappointing situation because my partner has been training, but not me. And believe me there are some pressures with attaining results when you are captain.

There was no lead up to the event. I had no idea who i was racing against, or when my events were. It's just a very very removed feeling from doing IA and the paddling world. And sad to say I no longer have the aptitude to make up lost time after work / weekends.

I feel a bit sorry for the team and PK because I could not provide any positive contribution. But anyway it was great to see new blood and familiar faces again. A nice bonding session, and perhaps a wake up call for everyone.

All this and other important reasons suggests a break (?) from the scene is well due...

All the best to the team, and till the day my passion can burn again, unhindered.